• Depression - Ramblings - Writing

    Today’s Excuses

    On one of my go-to podcasts about writing, they always end with “You’re out of excuses, now go write.” And I get it. I am full of excuses, but some days the excuses seem to weigh so much, I can’t move past them. A lot of time it is related…

  • Depression - Goals - Life - Ramblings

    Godot

    Invalid reasons that I put things I want to do on hold: What are you waiting for? For my meds to stabilize To hear back about the We Need Diverse Books mentorship application To hear back about the Futurescapes application * To hear back from job applications To feel like…

  • Depression - Life - Ramblings

    Next Chapters: Mental Health

    This post has been surprisingly difficult to write. I have been candid about my mental health from my first diagnosis with major depressive disorder (as evidenced by the depression category here on my site). It is only because I talked with others / read about others experiences that I sought…

  • Depression - Life - Ramblings

    Lies Depression Tells Me – 8 failure

    “You’ve put off the course work for the online workshop you were so eager for. You won’t catch up now, so don’t bother. Let’s just check that “fail” box.” “You misunderstood directions, and didn’t communicate, because you didn’t realize you misunderstood. You are a failure. A huge disappointing failure.” “You…

  • Depression - Writing

    NaNo WriMo 2015

    Sunday the calendar switches from October to November, and with it comes the start of National Novel Writing Month (NaNo WriMo). The goal is 50,000 words in 30 days – or an average of 1,667 words a day. For some this seems like a Herculean feat, particularly in a short…

  • Depression

    Lies Depression Tells Me, 5

    This one is cunning, because the lie here puts a spin on something that I actually believe. Something that I have read about, and put a bit of faith in due to personal experience. This lie is cunning because it twists the idea of being kind to oneself, of taking…